Listen to your gut

I am having an amazing summer here at camp! The community, weather, people, and God are all so amazing!! I love the kids that come through here and just am so thankful to have this opportunity to be here again!

On other news, on Sunday I broke up with Torsten. It had been something that was weighing on my heart for a while now.  I had been trying to make him into the man I wanted to be with.  In the end, he wasn't right for me and I finally saw that.  The biggest thing that I realized especially now that I am at camp is that I don't want to end up with someone who is not a Christian.  Torsten was really good to me and for me to grow as a person and learn how to be in an adult relationship but at the end of the day, he was not the one. I still care about him but am really glad I listened to my gut and to the hints that God had been showing me that I deserve more.  I probably would have been content marrying him but it would have been like settling and I don't want to just settle because I loved someone enough. I want that person to be the person I cant live without who only helps my faith grow and brings out the best in me.  When I did it I felt a huge relief and I know that is is right.  Different people that I have talked to have been really encouraging in my decision and that has really helped.  Robyn, a woman whose married to the head maintenance guy at the conference center told me just how important it is to listen to your gut because if you keep ignoring what your gut is telling you then you eventually won't hear that voice.  I also have talked to my parents a lot about it and they thought he was a really great guy but knew he wasn't the one for me.

I have learned a lot from being in a relationship with Torsten and will always love him in some way.  I hope he finds the girl that he deserves that can give him his whole heart because I couldn't be that girl.

Well, I absolutely love it here.  To me this place is paradise so holy cow are we going to be blown away when we get to heaven!

Love you girls and miss you so much!!